Tentitive surgery date

I saw the plastic surgeon. She is so nice and I feel reassured again after talking to her. I really like the way she pays attention to detail and she has a way making you trust her. She is really funny and reminds me of an old hippy except she is way younger then me.

It was a good news bad news visit. Good new because she has done several of these and knows exactly what to do. She will try to not leave a horrible scar, but as she told me and I know, the most important thing is to get the cancer out. The scar will depend on how much cancer is in there. Hopefully it is almost out. The facial nerve she is worried about is the one to my eyebrow. She said I might not be able to raise my eyebrow afterward. I was worried about facial droop so I guess this is OK.

I decided to not be put under again so will have it done under local sedation. This can take awhile because they take some out, send it to lab and wait for results and then take more, send it to lab, etc..... Hopefully they will get it all out with one more cut. Maybe I should bring a good book but they will have me in la la land.

I mentioned the severe nerve pain again and asked if she thought I might get that again and she said he might have nicked a nerve or it might have been the anesthetic they used to numb me so she can't say for sure, but they will give me something for pain this time. The worse case would be is if the cancer has spread so far that she can't get it all, so then she closes me up and sends me to the doctor in Omaha I was going to see. Now part of me is saying, I should just go to him then right off the bat, but most of me is saying I think it is almost gone and I will stay here where it is cheaper. Plus, I trust her to worry about the cancer first, but still worry about the scar.

She is not going to use sutures. She was teasing me about how I always have to have something out of the norm. I really like her.

Now for the not so good news. She has me for sure down for the 3rd of March. 3 weeks away and pretty close to having to go back to work. But I get the first cancellation. One of the patients hasn't shown up for her pre-op visit twice so I might get her spot on the 24th. And if anyone drops out because they are sick or something I get their spot. Plus her regular nurse is back from vacation Tuesday and she will know if there is someone they can switch around.

So....one of these days I will be having surgery and getting this past. Thank goodness. And I am praying, isn't this selfish that someone gets sick and has to cancel surgery real quick. They can have the 3rd of March, I will take now.

I had PT yesterday. My shoulder has been really bad again and I am not sure why. I hate that. Since the shoulder is a work comp thing I hate that it gets better and then bad again. You always feel like they don't believe you. Since I am off work and never missed any work because of it, what benefit would there be in lying? But they don't say that, I probably just feel that way because so many people do cheat on this which has ruined it for those of us really hurt at work. I truly do just want to get better and back to work. Something about making money and paying bills really appeals to me. Why would I want to cut my income down 2/3's?

We had a lovely day in Sioux Falls Tuesday. So relaxing. I am slowing adding photo's to my Photo journal. We saw the eagles but they stayed way to high to get good shots.



Well, time to get busy cleaning house. Skin cancer tip of the day. Most common spot to get skin cancer? Ears, nose and lips on the face. So, use that sunscreen, use a chap stick, SPF 15 or higher. Don't forget to put that sunscreen on your ears. Easier to do that then go through what I am having done. Taking chunks off your nose or lips really looks bad and if you tan, please think about stopping. This old person disease is showing up in 20 year olds.